..thoughts...

i was thinking about this last night before going to sleep. I realised that its only when i hit the bed that thoughts start flowing into my mind. My english is like perfect , everything looks so organized. But why is that..? I sit in front of the comp till 2 in the nights but nothing flows, but the time i hit the bed thoughts pour out like mad. Probably today night i should simply get up switch on the comp and start writing them. I dont know why this happens , i try to sleep but dont a wink of sleep . I keep looking at the ceiling as if i am out on star lit sky. This is the time i realise all the things which i should have done or the some work which did not go the way i wanted them too. This is the time u realise how lonely u r in this whole world. Nobody to understand you or what you say, everybody accusing for something or the other, u r like really tired of everything in life. two drops of tears flow out , one from each eye both fall down at the same speed. Its a situation where u take stock of ur life. zindagi kahan aa gayi hai types abhi kya karna hai aage.

yeh sab thoughts aathe hie nahin if u would have slept the moment u hit the bed. But getting a peaceful sleep has become so much rare these days. With all the tension in your head n thoughts like ki kya hoga kab hoga kaise hoga...it really gets difficult for a person to sleep.

ok my thoughts have stopped flowing right now probably i will have to wait for the time i go to sleep ...oh how much i long for that peaceful sleep.....

blog porn..????

hey all i was jus going through my blog site for any comments, generally if at all anybody had the patience to jus go through what i had written. there was this option on top right hand corner and it said next blog..i jus clicked and what do i see.....a blog which is nothing but a porn site..it has links to all the porn stuff u can find on the web. i was like shocked...when i clicked the next blog i expected some intresting reading stuff and not intresting pics..!!!! anyways so all u people be little careful when u click on that option u never know whats coming up....

nothing for today

me really not in a mood to write anything no blogs for today. But i must say one thing i have never been hooked to diaries or never written anything. I have always shared my experiences with people directly n most of the time its on phone. But now i can express my views vent out my frustration here, earlier times i used to throw things to take it out but then this is a better way i guess. god help all of us..

phew.....!!! not able to open my mouth

hey vaibhav appreciate what you have said man. i totaly agree that we have certain pre concieved notions about people . I agree to the view that how we would react to the person wearing the dhoti at the signal. well thats a topic that can be debated over n over again. I want to talk about views. Who decides whether the view i have is correct or not. By the time i explain my view to people around me i am like totally done. I am not able to figure whether we need to talk loudly to put forth our views to people or how do i do it. Everybody in this world wants to put forth thier views and they want it make it sound as if thats correct.....

actually i feel like a person with a plaster around my mouth and jus about little space is left. So most of which i like to say is like blocked and filtered and only few things come out. But then i try make pacify myself saying that this is part of my personality and i have been designed to be like this. If i could be more articulate in expressing my views then i would have not beeen who i am now...i guess God has made us all in a package take it or leave it types....its probably a combo deal....cant help each of us are probably different combos and we come with different combinations with all the positives and negatives.......

its about us

I am jus trying to write some thing , basically trying to focus myself

I mean how easy its for us to distinguish people and pass comments saying that they are so dumb and they are not part of the "intellectual gang". What defines a person as an Intellectual and who defines them. Who has coined these rules ?? I really get upset when people dont respect others . I mean none of us know everything in this world . We can't be perfect individuals. What ever the other person i am sure we will not know. Lets try n respect the other person for what ever he is . He must be gifted with something which we cannot do . Just because i dont think the same way as u think it does not make me small or inferior. its my view it may be very childish and very very basic but then its not wrong . Jus because our views differ i dont become inferior. I guess day by day all of us are losing the concept of respecting the other person for what ever he is. Our succes our education has got into our heads and we start treating people with dis respect. I jus want to ask people who the hell are they...Have they taken the responsibilty of the world or are they the moral authority to decide on whats wrong and whats not .

I think the most important thing is that one must be strong from inside and not outside. I guess your outer personality will help you but that would be only for a few days but later its only your inner side that is going to count. But sadly all of us have started respecting people who makes the most noise. all the silent ones are properly crushed. I mean jus because i dont refute what the other person is saying that person does not become right and i dont become right.Sadly people assume like that ...... and i really feel sad for them...

confused

I am jus so confused. I have so many things running in my mind and i really dont know what to write right now. Its just that i am always searching for answers to certain questions which keep running in my mind all the time. I am right now in a reliance web world and i can keep my eyes off from the screen of the person sitting in front of me. I dont know why i always had the penchant for observing people. observing them in close quarters trying to understand what thier psyche is. the person sitting in front is watching some photos. some of them happen to be porn. i was thinking whether he really wants to watch porn or jus that these pics came up. I am jus observing his behaviour he is so stiff, acting as if he is doing some important work and in between also lifting his head checking for people coming his way.... he is so scared....

this blog is more like my diary

its just been a day since i have started this blog and i am so excited to write. i dedicate this excitement and encouragement to that one person in my life who is very special to me. I am like a person who just needs a small spark and i can do anything. i jus need constant encoragement n understanding and thats it. I really want to write lots, i dont know the reason why , probably its because i have never really spoken my mind really aloud. Its always been what the other person says or likes. i really dont mind making the other person happy because it gives me happiness. If i do something and she likes it then nothing like it , i would be really happy.
As a person i am really scared to write or speak freely because i am scared as to how the other person would react . I am really scared even now because i dont know how people are going to react reading my blog, r they going to think wht is this guy writing, whats he blabbering and all this. Anyway i have started this writing process and i hope to take it really forward.

i know everything

i dont why this happens to me. everytime i think the worst is over something better comes up. i fully well understand that life cannot be a bed of roses but there should be an end an answer to all the questions i have. why is that people always have to doubt my credentials. everytime i try not to hurt anybody i end up hurting them even more. i jus want to tell everybody please dont mistake me , i am not intending to hurt u but its time u understand me. pleasetry n believe me. i might look playful , or not serious but belive me i am very serious. when its time to get serious i get very serious.

everybody has thier own point of view to things , thats the best part about people. and all of them are correct. there is no right no wrong but only a different view. if this is going to like this then how are we to live. if everybody wants to put thier opinion through then who is going to adjust. Everybody wants thier thing to go forward , its only about them is it ..what about the people like us..are we going to get crushed everytime because u want to do certain things ..?

speaking my mind

jus started into this ..... the main problem with me is that i have so much to say but i end up saying so little. half the time i am not able to speak my mind , thats the biggest problem i am facing in my life right now. i hope i can at least make myself heard in this world....